Because of those scheduling conflicts at the infusion center, these past few weeks have been slightly different than the way things have been the past few months. This has been rough because I am a creature of habit. I love routine. Even when the routine sucks, having it feels better than not having it.

These past six months, it has been: Work Sunday through Thursday - every other Thursday take off work for chemo, and picc line dressing change every Friday. On off chemo weeks, this looked like working until Thursday and still having something to do the next morning - no sleeping in or relaxing. In the beginning, this sucked. But I got used to it. It’s part of this whole thing, and at least it’s a regular routine.

But lately, my picc line dressing changes have been on Mondays which has been a bit of a hassle. It means I’m taking extra time during the work day to go to the appointment and they’ve been later in the day so I’m spending the day with the appointment looming. You may have gathered that I’m the kind of person who anxiously hangs in waiting energy when appointments or meetings are later in the day. Like I can’t relax until I Do The Thing. I was frustrated when I saw that my next few dressing changes are scheduled for Monday afternoons and I haven’t been able to get them rescheduled. It felt like things had to get harder right at the end when I should be getting ready to celebrate.

But, come Friday? I’m finding that I can breathe a little and actually unwind after the work week. I don’t have to get up to do a Cancer™ thing and I can just weekend 🏖 The celebratory mood and chill vibes I wanted for the final stretch were there, I just needed to be a little patient and adaptable - not my usual forte. It’s like a little taste of what’s to come, and it feels good.

In practice of gratitude and positivity, here are some things that made me happy this week: